ok that didnt work.. pictures when I get home!! but google image search "monterosso"

oh yeah..

This is where I was at the beach..

Buon giorno!

Ciao i miei amiche lesbiche!!! yes, i have learned the italian word for lesbian. awesome.
Im having a great time here!! I really miss you guys though :( I bought all your souvenirs the other day and Im really excited to give them to you! Although everywhere I go I'm like "hey I think Johanna would like that!" or "Ooo, I should get Chelsea some Italian crayons!" ...so good thing I'm on a budget or you would each get 985 souvenirs. I guess it's only good for me, though.. I'm sure you all would be happy :)
So far I have been singing really really well.. I'm working on a lot of hard repertoire with lots of coloratura (really high, really fast stuff). Up until a few weeks ago I was unsure whether I was a coloratura soprano or not but now Julian says I definitely am!! WOOHOO!!! I am also singing a really super high note (an F, the same note that is sung by Queen of the Night) and Julian is shocked and says that will bring me lots of moolah.. so when I have career I promise I will actually buy everyone 985 souvenirs :)
Ok, if that made no sense, I'm sorry. Basically, it is good!! But I have a mild cold that has been lingering for about three weeks, so I'm learning to sing through it, which is good because I won't have to cancel jobs when I get sick!
Also I've been doing a looooot of sightseeing. Last week Amanda and I went to a beach called Cinque Terre, which is five cliffside towns on the Mediterranean... it was absolutely beautiful. It seemed so unreal. I took some pictures of cute Italian men, so as soon as I get home you will see them all :) Also, Johanna, I've been taking pictures of things with cats just for you! hahaha
I've also been walking A LOT which is hard because of my ankle, so I just take it easy and hope for the best. But its nice to walk a lot, because now I can eat a lot too!! I had this pasta called "drunken noodles" one night, and the waiter told us how to make it.. so I will have a giant pasta party when I come home :) I also have had gelato every day.. yum. I can hear Jessie calling me a fattie right now :)
Basically, I am having a way better time than last year. But I still miss everyone and can't wait to come home!
Leah, are you still in Jersey? If not when will you be up again? When should we come visit you?!?!? Also, I saw the big bra store called Glamour the other day.. Amanda was drooling over bathing suits but they were 200 Euro each! Eek!
Johann, did you find a summer job or a real job? I hope so.
Arie I'm sorry I missed your birthday!! I got you an awesome bday present though :)
Chelsea... you are smelly. :) But really, we should come to Europe together one day.. I have a feeling you would be good at picking up guys here.
Jessie, one of my friends here reminds me of you a lot.. except she is clearly not as awesome.
Did fleet week happen yet? How was it?
Sorry this was such a disjunct post. It is 8:45 am and I'm getting ready to go on a bus trip to two towns in the Tuscan hills! Molto bellissima!! I use a lot of capitals when I write!!! Is there any certain day this summer that will be FLA day? Remember last year it was Tuesday.. but Jessie works on Tuesdays. Should we do Wednesdays? Mondays? I don't care.
Ok I love you all very much and can't wait to see you next week!! Ciao Belle!!!

almost back in nj...

hello all! im glad people finally have some time to post! ive missed you all but i will finally be coming home this friday. so lets do some hanging out next week. hope things are going well for everyone. i just had an amazing weekend- my school won the national championship. i know that doesnt sound so exciting to you guys since you dont watch basketball but trust me...its a big deal. so i was out celebrating on franklin street last night and even jumped over a few (small) bonfires. definitely a great way to wrap up my senior year of college. im still trying to accept the fact that im almost done. forever. i still have no idea what i will be doing next year. ive applied to schools in nj and nc since the job market is so rough (even for teachers). so maybe i will be in nj next year, but perhaps not. i would miss you all terribly if i was down here. but at the same time there is a lot of things i love about nc. so maybe it would be a win win no matter where i end up. there really isnt much point to this post- im just sharing my rambling thoughts with you all.

lydia- your dream cracked me up. leah- im jealous- i want to go to the anne frank museum! stay safe over there in europe...and bring me back a postcard please. jessie- yay 5th place! cant wait to see the video. did you run into ginny in ohio? arie- hope youre still alive =) chelsea- cool video. it was lovely to see your beautiful face. i wanted to make one of my own but my camera died =(

ok- love you all! see you next week!!

Oi!

hello everyone.

Lydia I am happy you are having sex dreams about your bf in jps body. I didn't realise that it was you posting at first and I thought somebody else was having a dream about making out with billy. I wonder if I wold tell you if i had a dream about making out with Baby gap. Probably. Speaking of dreams. I had the a really random dream last night. I was hanging out/ flirting/ snogging with Anuj sathe. (he was in my grade and played trumpet in marching band and also went to elementary school with me. last i heard he was going to NYU film school) anyways, I woke up and was like "Anuj Sathe wtf?" so i went to go stalk him on facebook but I am not friends with him. Oh well. Are any of you friends with him or still in the SBHS network? Then I could stalk by proxy. I have been havin really weird dreams all weekend mostly because I was in Amsterdam ad I was high for about 90% of the trip. It was absolutely ridiculous there. I have to go back for longer than a weekend. We went to a sex show  ( to clarify a show where people have sex in front of you) and my roommate jordan and our friend bryan ate a banana out of a cooter. crazy. During one act this harlot was giving head to some guy and there was this kid about our age wearing a trinity college sweatshirt and he was way up in the action, like two feet away from the wiggle. Bran was sitting next to me and said to me "look at this kid he's way up in the action" and I looked over at him ad he looked at me at the same time and I experienced te most awkward eye contact of my life. We locked eyes for a good 5 seconds and I am pretty sure we were both sweating at the end of it.I know I was. I then told bryan what he had just made me do and he spit his beer on me in a fit of laughter. I didn't care I was high.

I also did some educational things in Amsterdam like the Anne frank house. It is so eerie in there but worth the 8 euro. I got a little teary eyed. I also did the Van gogh museum which was AMAZING! buuuut it probably would have been only pretty cool it I had bot smoked beforehand. It is so nice to smoke without the worry of getting caught.

Lydia, I am so sad that I had to miss your recital. I actually have been looking forward to it since you started going to westminster. You bet your ass I will be there next year though.

I will be hooting and hollering in the front row. I know you did really well and I hope I get to see a video of it when I get home? please? I also hope I get to see a video of Jessies guard show.   I really really miss all of you and I want to spend the summer in NJ again. Buuut I don't know if I can. I don't want to mooch on anyone this summer So I was wondering if Lydia or Johann will have an apartment that I could pay a bit of rent for? It would be from like earlyish may to mid august.  I would have to figure out a job first though. OOOH I don't knwo what I want to do I have to talk to my mom. She would be pretty pissed if I spent anymor etime away from her. I hate decisions like this. well i have to g it is like 75 dgrees here ad I am going to go frlic around singing gunther. I am looking forward to some tuttu fruiti summer love with you guys. Love you!

don't judge

so, last night I had a dream that I was making out with billy.. and it WAS billy, except he looked like... jp. you know, that one. my fifth grade dream come true! haha. i woke up and was realllly grossed out!! we have all been failing on upgrading lately, probably because we're all way too busy! i know i have been. my recital is on saturday and im really excited.. but also kind of sick. but im probably just freaking myself out. i really hope that i will be well enough to have it because i want to get it over with and start learning new music.
i guess i will tell you about spring break. i went to florida! with my sister to visit my grandparents.. it was really fun! all i really did was swim and eat. also we played progressive rummy for money and my grandpa won 4 out of 4 times. haha. i decided that my grandma must love to feed people so much because she was talking about the great depression when they would make one rack of lamb on sunday and that was food for the whole week.. and maybe a potato here or there. yikes! but yeah, it was fun. and really nice to just get away from new jersey for a while. i cant wait until we're old and have real jobs and have enough money to take cool vacations together!
johann, i miss you very much ;( i cant wait until april 10!! or april 11? whenever.. i cant wait. leah, i also miss you :( and i hope youre having more fun/laughter in london. jess, good luck this weekend!! you guys will kick ass!!!! arie, i havent seen you in 9804845 years. this must be fixed. chelsea, great video. your eyes do look weird.
ok love you all!! :)

My eyes look funny.

snow day in NC

hello! sorry its been so long since i wrote anything. last week i was sick and did not have the energy for things like typing or thinking. it made going to school and teaching all day not so fun. but i am all better now =) and i have a snow day. which is nc means there is an inch of snow on the ground and everyone is too scared to drive. so my life has been going pretty well. student teaching has its ups and downs. i didnt realize how hard getting the children all to behave would be. but (except for one day last week) i still want to be a teacher so i guess thats a good sign. ok i dont have anything particularly exciting to relate. besides teaching i dont have much of a life. but i wanted to say hi to everyone. has everyone turned to march on their fla calendars? the picture makes me smile.
leah- you should show your london friends this picture of a black person with a butter knife and a packet of jelly stuck in her sleeve pocket. if they dont laugh at that- well then you can just give them up as lost causes. i hope you are having many lovely experiences and dont miss us too much! i miss you coming to spend the weekend with me. if you were here now we could play in the snow...
arielle- i think we all have days when our heads go a little crazy. im sorry =( they are no fun. neither are relationships when you cant see the person whenever you want and have to rely on the phone. but im sure everything will work out fine for you. i love you!
jessie- because i am such a colorguard dork i saw that sac won the power regional. yay! congrats. i wish i could see you guys in person this year. but i will definitely watch the dvd when you get one.
lydia- im actually sticking to my goal is eating fairly healthy. some days are better than others tho.
chelsea- no special message but hi! and no more videos of kittens or i will come back to nj just to punch you in the face =)
ok- i still have to go in to school for a teacher workday so i should go get ready. bye all

Hello, it's me.

Hello friends!

I just got back from Washington D.C. where I was visiting Jordan for the weekend. I really love that city. It is my favorite city in the world. And, just think..when I'm president I'm going to get to live there. How awesome is that? SUPER AWESOME. It was a good weekend. We went to a bar on friday night and I had to use an extra fake ID that once belonged to Betsy's sister. (Betsy is Jordan's friend.) The guy took one look at the ID and said "You guys have to get better fake IDs." So I was like OH SHIT! I'm in trouble! But then he said he'll let me go this one night and never again. So, I got in as 21 anyway. I thanked him profusely. Then a frat boy was talking to me and Jordan and bought us our drinks. Once he started to walk away we left as quick as possile because all we wanted was the drinks. not him. And there was a creepy 40 year old guy who was like getting girls drunk and buying them shots and having them dance on the bar. We steered clear of him, no worries.

Saturday, we were going to go to the American History Museum (WHOO!) but we got there at five and most of the museums closed at 5:30. So, that was a bust. We took quick pictures of the capital and the washington monument and then got out of there because it was cold. In all, it was a super awesome weekend.

Arie, buck up camper! you have plenty of friends and your head is being crazy. DONT LISTEN TO IT! There is nothing wrong with you/your life.

Leah, maybe your room mates have british humor and just dont get your american ways. (yes, i know they are not from england but maybe its rubbing off on them.)

Lyd, good story.

saggy boobs.

so i keep trying to leave comments and it wont let me!!

arie, i was going to comment on yours and say that im sorry youve been feeling down :( i get home a lot earlier than everyone in my apartment and it gets to me, too. we should hang out sometimes while everyone else is still at school! maybe you feel weird about dave because you really dont see him that often.. and when youre feeling down its easy to think of things to make yourself feel worse. all i can really tell you is that i know youre strong enough to not let this get to you completely. maybe you just need some more distractions :)

leah, im sorry you feel like life is being a bitch to you. :( i agree that you are a good person and these bad things should definitely not happen to you!! but as silly as it is, everything happens for a reason. it also makes me sad that you arent laughing a lot :( i hope when jordy arrives she will make you feel better. it takes a lot to adjust to a new place, you know? as you know better than any of us having moved to georgia and all. basically, i think youre amazing and you should keep your head up and do whatever you want to in order to have some fun!!!!

back to the title of this post... i have saggy boobs. yup, at age 20. how did this happen?! its just all going to go downhill from here. anyone else having this problem?
also, johann, hows your diet going? mine is failing miserably. i havent gained any weight but i havent lost any either! i cant wait till summer when we can be eating buddies :(

hmm.

So last night I was trying to get to sleep and I think my wisdom teeth do have to be taken out because I had a crazy toothache. I thought I would just listen to my ipod until I fell asleep. I tried to turn on my ipod then remembered that my roomate spilled water/beer on it so it would not turn on. ( I now have it plugged in to my computer and it is on i hope it holds battery) so I called my mom all pissy and just bitched about how tired I am of all these shitty things happening to me. i was bitching about KArma and how I think that I am a good person and I try really hard to be nice but OBviously there is a higher being who thinks that I suck and I must have been a Nazi in a past life. Because since I got here I have had my wallet with 150 pounds, my debit card, my student Id and my passport in it stolen, I have been sick twice (one of those times I am pretty sure I had the plague) My wisdom teeth are hurting me like whoa and my ipod might be broken. The punches just keep coming. And I have not met any of those charming british boys because we always have the boys from downstairs hanging around us and we might as well have leprosy with them hanging around. But anyways after bitching at my mom I fell asleep and I feel better now. I'm not cursing any higher beings today. Though if more shitty things happen you guys can count on me getting struck by lightning.

Next weekend Jordan gets here. I talked to my friend Samantha from GA last night and I realised that my roomates don't get my sense of humor. I was laughing with her about her professor defending someone who was obviously a baby shaker (long story) and my roomate cvame out to see if I was ok because she thought Iwas crying. I told Sam tha I don't laugh here. which prompted her to laugh at me. it was a good talk. I really do miss everyone dearly. But I have friends coming to visit soon so maybe that will help. Maybe if I can joke in front of my roomates they will catch on and then I can joke with them more when my home friends leave. I'm not sure he point of this post but oh well. catch you later.

proof that girls are crazy

so, i don't know whats wrong with me, but when i spend too much time by myself i can convince myself of anything. the past 2 days i've been done with class and everything by about 2:30, and from that point on have had nothing to do. so both days i came back to my room, played wii for a little bit, then took extremely long naps, which is weird, cause i don't nap. but yesterday i took a 4 hour nap! which for me is HUGE! and then, idk, just so much time by myself my thoughts have been going haywire. i can easily convince myself of things like somethings wrong with my relationship, or i have no friends and no social life, or that people are mad at me when they're really not. and from a rational point of view, none of any of these things are true, but for some reason lately i've been left feeling really alone and depressed. like, i got in a fight with dave on sunday night, and we went to bed angry which really bothered me, but by early monday we had everything completely resolved, and things have been fine after that. but for some reason i can easily tell myself something's wrong and we're gonna break up and all of these things, when the truth is nothing's wrong and everything's perfectly fine. but why do i do this to myself?? sometimes i really feel like i'm going crazy :(

thank you

you guys are amazing. it means so much to know that you all support me. i talked to my teacher about this last week and he said that i just have to start trusting myself. so whenever im feeling down, i will think about you guys cheering me on!! maybe leah will even have some whipped cream to spray around! (ps. if you come to my recital next year, i will def. have some there for you :) im sorry it took me so long to read all the posts! yohann, im glad youre teaching and enjoying it! thats so exciting!! one day i will send my children to your school :) leah, i think i already told you on the phone that i too admire what youre doing.. but if i didnt, i really do. i think youre very brave and strong and wonderful for going to a foreign country all alone and helping kids with their lives. arie, im glad your laptop is alive haha. the opera was really fun!! we really do have to go to dinner with my parents some time. next time youre bored and sick of dining hall food, call me up!
this week my choir is singing at carnegie hall with the new york philharmonic!! im super excited. so many people bitch about having to miss class and blahblahblah, but these are amazing experiences and im glad i get to have them. i hope everyone else is doing well, too. now i have to go home and eat roast chicken, but once again i just want to say how much it means to have all of your support. many people have said the same encouraging words to me, but somehow they are so much more meaningful and real coming from you guys! i love you all!!!

So THIS is what its like to update...

hello ladies,

I'm sure you will all be pleased to hear, my lap top has risen from the dead. My friend at Rider, Jen, has taken dear Lap Top to her brother, who exorcised the demons, but those tricky mofo's wouldn't all leave, so apparently he just deleted everything on my comp and started over. But it now starts in less than a minute (1/30 of the time it did before....no lie), and I will apparently be able to use it as a functioning computer. Idk though, she has it still and is giving it to me tomorrow, so we'll see how things go.

Other things to catch you up on....hmm....there was a scare for a while I might have Mono! A month ago I got sick, then Dave got sick, then I got sick AGAIN, then so did he (and amazingly no kissing was going on!! :( so idk), but he went to the doctor, and was told there was a good possibility he had Mono.....greeaattt. My first boyfriend and he gives me mono...the only thing worse would be my first sexual experience and getting an STD lol... But, even though I'm STILL recovering from being sick all month, he's all better and no signs of Mono, so lets keep our fingers crossed. But seriously, at this point I've had everything from a stomach virus (which ended my 17 year streak of not throwing up) to crappy colds...I think when I'm over this one I'll be immune to all common colds! ....or so it feels. But the good news is I've been so traumatized from being sick that I've hardly been hungry, so while I haven't been starving myself or anything, I think I've actually lost a significant amount of weight! ...lets just hope I can keep it off so I can finally fit back into the black dress from my sweet 16 and leah's dream :)

And besides all of that, not really much of anything else to catch you all up on. If I think of something though, I will most certainly let you all know.

I can't wait til we reunite the FLA!! :) <3

Lyd my love.

This is the first I have ever heard you doubt what you want to do lyd. Everyone doubts a commitment as big as a career choice. I don't know if I can handle dealing with the people I want to help. Did you know I changed my major three times in my first semester? I believe Chelsea has now changed her major twice now. Arielle thought about transfering to a seminary school and becoming a preacher in her freshmen year if I recall correctly. One mess up in a small classroom will not affect* your career which I sure will be brilliant. I think your voice is breathtaking and completely unique and I know you are probably thinking "what the hell do you know you have clogged ustation tubes and deafness runs in your family" well yes and I know very little about music as well but I am not alone in thinking this. Remember when you got that e-mail from that famous dude saying that he really thinks you are going places? I do and i tell people that when I talk about you. I am so proud to be friends with all of you and I brag about your talent so the thought of you being insecure about that is mind-boggling to me. And as for you being smart enough to do different things, there are plenty of smart people out there but not a lot of people with your kind of voice. Do what makes you happy.

Speaking of smarts, or lack there of, I learned a new term from my students the other day. Tit-wanking. It means boob fucking ( ijust typed that and I can'y see where it came up so I had to type it again so if it means boob fucking shows up anywhere else, my apologies) I really do love my kids. The only part I hate about my job is the whole educating part. Getting them to any kind of work is by far the most tedious ridiculous thing I have ever hadto do. Its the comments like "you mothers nipples" and "i'll put syphillis in your face" that get me through that part. I would much rather I were involved in the whole social work aspect then the education aspect. I'm quite good at talking kids through their problems. Thats all i can think of to write at the moment. it wa snice hearing form you arielle! I miss all of you. Oh! I have been pretty sick lately the doctor told me it is a cold but i wanted to inform her that in fact it is the plague. I'm feeling betterish now. About 80% which is good because I have been feeling liek 30% but I really hope I am at least 90% tomorrow if not I am going to be in a real foul mood becaus eI have left the house 3 times this week and its getting old. But anyways I have been having crazy fever dreams where my roomates piss me off and i either bitch at them or cry alone. To reiterate this is in my fever dreams. I love them and they love me and would never actually piss me off that much. But anyways my dream last night was that we went to class and our teacher told us he was taking us to a pub but instead took us through backyards like over fences and whatnot to a house party. I was still pretty sick in my dream and I fr some reason was without a coat ad shoes. It is damn cold here btw. I wanted to just go back to the flat because I wasn't feeling well, but they convinced me to come coatless and shoeless. When we got there they all completely ignored me and isolated me. When I tried to walk up to them they would see me and run away Celia (in my dream) actually told me to leave her alone. SO i decided to go home and cry alone and rest so I tried to go to each of my roomates and was denied then I saw arielle in the black dress with them pink toule that she wore at her sweet sixteen and I went to her and told her that I was going home and she kissed me on th eforehead asked me if I were ok, offered to walk me back and said she hopes I feel better. True friend. My roomates would never never do that an I'm pretty sure they enjoy my company. But still I had to share that with you guys. Thats it for real this time! Catch you later!

i heart lydia

i agree with arielle. you have an amazing voice and a gift like that should be shared. so that is a meaningful thing to do with yourslef. also- if one day you realize you arent being fulfilled by singing or you want to do more, guess what? you can! lots of people do multiple things throughout their life that might not even be a little bit related to each other. so dont stress. and i know how hard it is to do well when you are freaking yourself out. especially when you feel like other people might be judging you. i had to teach a lesson in front of 30 college students last semester and pretend they were 8. i was so nervous. i kept skipping over things, i blanked on everyones name (we had been in class with each other for two years), and it was a big mess. it made me feel like a failure as a teacher. so you have to get over the freaking out so you can be as awesome as we all know you are.
speaking of teaching- i started full time teaching this week. which means i teach the whole day and my teacher is just observing/helping me. i was so scared i thought i was going to throw up monday morning! but it has gone really well so far. im really excited! i cant wait to do this next year. although sometimes i feel really overwhelmed by all the stuff i have to keep track of. so its a mixture of stress and excitement this week really. ok- thats about all thats going on down here in chapel hill. love you all =)

To the Loves of My Life!!!

i just want to say I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!!!!!

I'm so sorry i haven't been on to update all my lovely ladies on my life. Unfortunately there will soon be a memorial service held for my lap top, and as such I really haven't been online much lately. If I am its stealing my rommates laptop to get 2 seconds on myspace and facebook, and then I'm gone :( But I promise you all I will be on more often from now on, despite my crazy busy and hectic semester.

But, for now I have to run, not really anything to update you all on. But soon I will be on to read all the posts I've missed and comment on them all. But no matter what, I love all you ladies soooooooooooooooo much, and I'm gonna be really sad on Valentines Day without all of you!!!

I LOVE YOU GUYS!

overwhelmed.

so last night, i got home from school and had a billion things going through my head that are still bugging me now. who better to talk to about this then you guys?!?
im taking a class this semester with about 10 people in it. we all take turns getting up and singing and the teacher coaches us while everyone watches. now, these are the kinds of classes i should be thrilled about, because all i have to do is sing! however, yesterday i was sitting there the whole time thinking "omg, im going to sing so badly. everyone else is 938023958 times better than me. im bad!" and alas, it was not so great when i finally sang. i was so nervous that i was shaking and i had tunnel vision and i couldnt breathe deeply. so i guess i have pretty severe performance anxiety. when things like this happen, it makes me feel like maybe im not doing the right thing with my life. i mean, in the long run, what does it matter if i can tell you the meaning of a poem or not? who will care if my breath support is consistent? its not like im saving people's lives. one of the things that scares me the most is that im so worried ill end up doing a mediocre "temp" job that i hate forever. but the worst part is, i know that im smart enough to have done something meaningful.. i just dont want to waste my life away. im terrified of going back to this class and i dont know what to do. im going to talk to my teacher about it. he always says to just compare myself to myself, but its so hard not to compare myself to other people. and when i do that, i feel like im the worst one there. :(
so i just wanted to get that off my chest. thanks for reading

dreams and alcohol.

I couldn't think of a title but those are two subjects that will be covered in this post. Last night I dreamt of Brian Kratchman. My aunt pam was also in my dream talking about pubic hair. She kept saying "pubes" and then I gave her a look and she said "pubes are my favorite subject" and I said "cool we'll discuss them over dinner" We were at Brian Kratchman's sister's wedding (which actually turned out to me Dara's sisters wedding) and the ceremony was about to start. I only saw Brian at a distance but I wanted to dance with him. I was then awoken by my phone ringing. Who would be calling me a 6 in the morning my time and 1 in the morning your time? I'll let the culprit own up. But I'll give you a couple hints. It's a girl who reads this and she was drinking. Her name also rhymes with smellsea. But when I went back to sleep i tried to start my dream of the Kratchman but there was no use. The Kratch was gone. *sigh* Thanks smellsea.

I'm not sure what else to update you on. I haven't hooked up with anyone and Johann I'm not sending home any brits for you until I find my own. Sorry.

We found flights to egypt in april for $300 and then an all inclusive resort for 60$ pernight. That 60$split between at least 4 people. So i am probably going to egypt in april.

Arie where are you?

No Creative Title Today

i too wish we could have valentines day dinner together. i still remember the time lydia bought me my first valentines present from cvs. its still the only v day present ive ever recieved. my life is so cool haha. anyway- i know the busy life excuse is lame but ive been crazy busy as well. student teaching is fun but exhausting. sometimes i just come home and collapse on my bed. i dont know how im going to make it through the next 30 years of my life! chelsea- im sorry your scottish boy turned out to be lame =( at least you got some action first tho. i dont really have much to share. my life is spent at my elementary school, writing lesson plans, sleeping, or eating. on the weekends i lead a very exciting life of building houses and teaching sunday school. wow- i sound old and boring. you guys need to update me on your adventures so i can live through you. love you all! happy valentines day. anyone who wants to send me a boy in the mail as a valentines present would be my bestest friend for ever and ever. (hint hint leah- plain faced boys with british accents would be especially appreciated)

blah

sorry i haven't been on here too much!! school has been crazy so far. my choir had a full week of performances in NYC this week, so i am just really tired and drained. jess, im sorry to hear that you are so sad :( but i love you and hope you feel better soon. we WILL hang out next week!! johann, im sorry that you are having family drama too.. hope everything is ok. i also loved your cooking story haha. chelsea, that scottish guy is stupid.. he is missing out. leah, how was the crazy snow storm? arie.. where are you?!?!
i lost my cell phone today.. so dont expect to be contacted by me for a while :( i guess if you want to text me, text billy instead! its probably a good thing, since my phone was super old and lame.
not much else is really going on right now.. i dont really have an awesome life that im too busy to update about ;) just getting readjusted to school and trying to stay healthy. i wish we could all be together for valentine's day, too. i will never forget when we gave mhp flowers. speaking of mhp, he should be honored to be in our movie. i also like abyss of ovulation for the title. to play me.. hmm. i really like drew barrymore but yohann stole her!! so i guess rachel mcadams or kate winslet. haha. probably rachel mcadams. yohann, i have been watching big love .. im all caught up!! im so mad that bill is dating a fourth. what the hell is wrong with him?!
but anyway, i love you all and i promise i will keep up with this blog from now on!!! hope everyone has a lovely weekend :)

Hello, it's me.

Hello guys. I thought I'd get on this thing and give you all a real update of my life. But first, I must pose this one question: WHERE IS ARIELLE AND LYDIA? HMMMM? They obviously need to get on this thing more often.

OK, so, updates..hmm..well, I am no longer a science major which is fun. But suddenly I have a lot of papers to write which I am totally not used to. I think there are going to be a lot of resources in this school that I'm going to have to start taking advantage of (i.e. the writing labs.) I don't think I told all of you, but I am on conditional standing. That basically means if I don't do well this semester, Rider is kicking me out. Let's keep our fingers crossed.

Work sucks. All the time. I never enjoy going to work. Like ever. Luckily I don't have to work too often. They usually just put me on call. which sucks, but at least I don't have to go in sometimes. I almost have to work on Valentine's day from 3:00 to 10:30. But I told them I can't so they better change that for me. Besides, I'm planning on having a lovely Valentine's Day party for Gee Hall. So, yay for that.

I wish we had a wonderful concert to attend this Valentine's Day. Actually, I just wish we were all together for it. Valentine's Day is cliche and stupid but I love it when I'm with you all.

Quick update on men, because I don't really like to talk about them, but think you all shuold know: That adorable Scottish boy and I hooked up last Friday and it was wonderful and he was nice to me and told me 'he's not just anybody.' (dont worry, I didn't buy into his crap that much.) But, then by Sunday he was ignoring me and avoiding me so I confronted him and he told me it just felt all wrong and blah blah blah...basically, he's a douche bag. So, he's gone. Which is fine because he is a poetry writing pansy and it'd just be a relationship of puke.

So, yeah that basically it and I think we should pester Arie and Lyd to get on this thing because they have lives to update us on too. Maybe thats why they're not updating...because they have lives. Annnyway, Jordan is coming to visit me tomorrow. I'm stoked. She's cool. And, I'm going to buy alcohol tonight.

OH!
and most importantly, I have a SUPER AWESOME video to upload to this thing later. I'm not on my computer right now so I don't have the file. But, it's a good one and I will post it soon.

I MISS YOU GUYSSSSSSSS! :(

Starring the FLA...

so i completely agree with chelsea that there needs to be a movie about us. any ideas for a title? abyss of ovulation perhaps? yohann says nothing definitely will do the soundtrack for our movie. do you think mhp would agree to make an appearance? by the way- i call being played by drew barrymore or ginnifer goodwin (shes in big love and mona lisa smile).
jessie im sorry you are having a rough time right now. that really sucks. im having family drama right now too and its really frustrating. especially when you are trying to live your life and get all the stuff you need to done while dealing with drama. so i know what youre going through. so i love you and im praying for you. call me if you want to talk. oo- and i think both our sisters should be sent to a desert island somewhere. can we get maury to make that happen or something?
well this is a short post but i cant write comments so whatever. ok love you all! good night =)

heyyyyyy...

glad to see you guys are having some adventures! leah- that's hilarious in it's own way! but i'm sorry you had to experience that :(  johan- of course you would set your whole dorm on fire! hahahaha!  chels- you should have just kissed him! he went the 90, now where was your 10%???? lydia- hope you still like your hair :) arie- are you even alive? i know you're busy with your beau and all... :P

hmmm what do i have to report? my life currently feels like everything once again is crashing down on me. i'm soooo depressed that i haven't been to the gym in 2 weeks, and barely have an appetite :/... what else? my dad thinks i'm a horrible person. i told frankie that i loved him. and cried. and haven't talked to him in 4 days. got into a huge fist fight with my spoiled sister. and cried. but think i won :). and had to take the day off of work b/c i COULDN'T  stop crying. but, on the plus side, i'm still alive and think i have a good chance of not seeing the positive in any of this. 

sorry to be such a debbie downer....but that's what's going on with my, according to my therapist, non-existent life.

La La La

So, I am in the library and I am bored. I don't really have an interesting story to tell you all. But, I'm bored. So I will tell you anything I can think of.

1) Has anyone heard the new Britney song called "If You Seek Amy?" It is incredibly dirty. She says:

Love me, Hate me,
Say what you want about me
But all of the boys and all of the girls are begging to
If You Seek Amy

which makes no sense. But, the parents are in an uproar because it sounds (intentionally, of course) like she's saying F-U-C-K me. What a dirty slut. But quite a catchy song...for sluts.

2) I hope one day Hollywood makes a movie about us. We are all such unlikely friends but yet we're super tight. We would be the best movie in the world. I would want to be played by Amy Adams or Emma Stone. Who would you want to play you? You can't Amy Adams because I already shottied her.

Ok, I have to go read.

Culinary Adventures

so i will start with comments because, for some reason, the computer freezes any time i try to comment on anyones post =(. 1- leah i (almost) wish i could have been at the strip club to see your face. but i wouldnt have wanted to gaze into an abyss of ovulation either. 2- chelsea, boys are dumb. they should not be kissed, they should be punched in the face. 3- jessie yey for figuring out modern technology and getting online! and yey for wanting to like boys that actually like the abyss of ovulation! 4-arielle, donde estas? we want to know what is going on in your life chica. if it is not interesting just make something up =) 5- lyd, i dont have anything for you but i didnt want you to feel left out. hi!

ok so on to my adventure. friday night my friends alekhya, melody, and i (happy leah? i used correct grammar just for you) were making dinner in our dorm's kitchen. now this is a very old kitchen with a stupid stove that doesnt work properly. i was cooking rice and we noticed that it was smoking quite a lot. knowing that the stove was difficult, i didnt think too much of it. but then it started pouring out smoke and i thought- this would be a good time to take the rice off the burner. well apparently i did not take it off soon enough. the smoke alarm went off and the whole dorm had to evacuate. because of me. it was very embarrassing and we had to stand outside in the cold forever until the firemen came to shut off the alarm. it turns out that there was old food inside the burner- so the smoke was not really my fault at all. even still, it was a very eventful cooking experience. and we still had to finish cooking. so we waited until we were sure the firemen had left and we scurried over to the dorm next door, which has a much nicer kitchen. im sure we looked very odd because we were carrying a bowl of raw chicken, oil, a half cooked pot of rice, and various cooking utensils across the quad. however, we made it safely next door and i am proud to say that we did not set off two fire alarms in one night and our food was very good. so that is my funny/embarrassing story =)

I got a lap dance.

So last night my roomate Jordan ad I were convinced to go to a strip club with the boys downstairs. She is 22 and from texas and had been to one before. I quite obviously had not. Jordan was preparing me for full on unch in the face but it wasn't that bad. They kept their distance until a couple of the boys bought a lap dance to be shared between Jordan and me. Her name was Chastity (not really but her name is one of y'alls names for your kids so i won't say what it is) She was wearing nipple flower things a sparkly thong and a red fishnet crotchless body suit. I don't think I was that awkward until she kissed me on the mouth and then licked my face. The when she back away she said "it's not so bad is it? Relax!" and then she shimmyed(spelling?) in my face. I really tried to hide my embarassment but JOrdan said my face was electric red through the black light and my mouth was a perfect O. SO i made my stripper uncomfortable enough that she stopped our lap dance before she took off her panties. I don't know how I feel about that. I know I was not drunk enough to look into an abyss of ovulation.

here's my story...

ok, so, you all know Mike form my Australia trip? The one who I've always thought is SUPER cute? But, unfortunately the whole time I've known him he's had this girlfriend. ugh. Lucky for me, they broke up a few months ago. Something I've been waiting for for 2 1/2 years. And it's not like I was just going to jump on him because he's now single but I was happy for the fact that something could finally happen. All I wanted to do was hook up with him.

Soooooo, I went over his house yesterday just to hang out. I haven't seen him in like six months so we decided to hang out before we went back to school. And NOTHING HAPPENED AT ALL.

I mean, I wasn't banking on something happening but we flirted like mad and at one point he was sitting on top of me (we were fighting,) had my arms pinned down, and was two inches (if that) from my face. WHY didn't he just kiss me? I knew he wanted to. But he didn't. If he didn't want to, he wouldn't have been that close to me.

So then we just went back to watching tv. and we shared a blanket.

I was slightly disappointed and had to vent because i have been wanting to kiss this kid for TWO AND A HALF years.

Next time, mark my words.

i think i did this right....

hey guys,

sorry this took me soooo damn long lol...ooooo blogging! so interesting haha. anyways, life is going...pretty ok i guess. work is fun, and i should be on the floor in like 2 months, SO I'M GONNA NEED YOU GUYS AS MODELS PLEEEEEEEEEASE! and i hoping that i've finally realized that i need frankie out of my life, because although he's become a pretty good friend, i'm still hoping for more...and can't keep putting myself through this. so BOYS WHO LIKE GIRLS here i come! :) i miss you guys soooo much and i'm glad that stuffs working out for you guys


p.s. is there anyway i can change my username thing? you guys all have funny ones lol

Where is Jessie?

Someone get that black girl to check her e-mail!
I sent it to her and reminded her.
where is she???

London

Hello All!

So far London is really fun. I love my roomates and we all mesh really well. I do really miss you guys though. My internship is great. They gave the choice of working with the adult ex-convicts and what not or with the 14-16 year old kids who have been kicked out of their school for disiplinary issues. I chose the little delinquents and I love them. Some of the kids really don't get in to trouble but they are so dyslexic I have a feeling the mainstream school just did not want to deal with them. I love the boys there they are so sweet. There is this one boy alex who doesn't give me any troube at all but he doesn't do his work and he isn't the brightest. I caught him staring at me so I smiled and went back to work and then i look again a minute later and he is still staring and he goes "You're very pre-y (pretty) teachah" (that was me attempting british dialect but imagine it in a british accent, very cute) He might be buttering me up to rape me or something but I don't think he is that smart. But he did steal my heart. The boys have taught me how to play pool and i am terrible. I almost hit one boy in the face with the cue ball. It's a good thing they like me otherwise there may have been a riot at that point.

Besides work I have been going out everynight. Two nights ago was the first night here that I did not get drunk and we did not go out because Deb and I were sick (I have a bit of a cold but I am getting better now). On a anther kind of suckey note my wallet was stolen with my passport and everything in it. It's not tragic it's just a huge headache.

I hate to end ona suckey note but I have to get going. I will post more when I can! I love you guys and I wish you were here!

Love,
Leah

First Week of Student Teaching

yey to chelsea for this wonderful idea! =) now we will have something to look back on in 10 years and ask ourselves- did we really sound that dumb? since as lydia, chelsea and i know from experience, when you go online and look back at what you wrote on your xanga or livejournal in high school it is hilarious...and embarrassing. so- i am almost done with my first week of student teaching. im just helping and not really teaching for the next two weeks but it was still exciting. i love my kids- they are very funny and only sometimes obnoxious. oh- i made a kid cry yesterday tho. first time ive done that. i (very sternly) told him to get back to his work instead of playing around and then when i looked over it him he was crying. so that was a not so fun moment for me. its also very weird to not be in classes or have homework anymore. but next week i have to start writing lesson plans so i guess that will feel like homework. im almost a real grown up! also- i ate spinach yesterday. more proof that i am growing up. i am turning over a new vegatable leaf this year and trying to eat better. well i guess thats all from me for now. how is everyone else doing with the rest of their break? leah- tell us about london! im guessing you have met harry potter and prince william by now and are having tea with the queen tomorrow. love you all =)

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So, three times over the past few days I have received a phone call from a taped message saying that an inmate at the Middlesex County Adult Correctional Center wanted to place a collect call to my number. Twice I hung up, and the last time I accepted but I would have had to pay. Does anyone know of anything weird going on? Anyone we know get arrested? I just think it's so strange! Although Brad said it was probably Jessie, getting arrested for DWB.. hahaha. Sorry, Jess, I love you!!!!

Woohoo!!

I think this is a great idea. Much more efficient and permanent than facebook messages. I am in NC right now with Johanna and it has been super fun! I just watched the slideshow that she made us last summer and I almost cried. I just want to start off my blogging experience by saying how happy I am that we are all still friends. After listening to a couple of arguments about people drifting after college, I really think that we will all be lifelong friends. And just for the record, all of you are going to be bridesmaids at my wedding! I know that during the year it's hard to keep in touch all the time, but it's wonderful to know that there's always a shoulder to lean on and people who really care. I love you all! Leah, I hope you are having a SUPERAMAZINGAWESOME time and I'm sure you are!! Hope you get a chance to update us every once in a while. Chelsea and Arie, I'm really going to try and see you guys more often this semester. Johann, I will miss you :( Thanks for letting me come down with you. Even though you've had to go to school, I'm really glad we got to spend this time together. Jess, I want to see you more often this semester too!! We have no excuse now that you work five feet away from me. Once again, I love everyone and I can't wait until we're all home in the summer to make more crazy memories!

Gangstassss, what's up?

Hi guys! I talked with most of you about setting up a blog that we could just share our stories and keep in touch. I figured this was a good idea because Leah is far away in London and Johanna is slightly less far away in North Carolina. Since we're all split up, and have our own schedules, this would be a good way to share our stories with each other while we're all apart. So just post whenever you feel like and don't forget to check up on it to see what everyone else has to say!