Lyd my love.

This is the first I have ever heard you doubt what you want to do lyd. Everyone doubts a commitment as big as a career choice. I don't know if I can handle dealing with the people I want to help. Did you know I changed my major three times in my first semester? I believe Chelsea has now changed her major twice now. Arielle thought about transfering to a seminary school and becoming a preacher in her freshmen year if I recall correctly. One mess up in a small classroom will not affect* your career which I sure will be brilliant. I think your voice is breathtaking and completely unique and I know you are probably thinking "what the hell do you know you have clogged ustation tubes and deafness runs in your family" well yes and I know very little about music as well but I am not alone in thinking this. Remember when you got that e-mail from that famous dude saying that he really thinks you are going places? I do and i tell people that when I talk about you. I am so proud to be friends with all of you and I brag about your talent so the thought of you being insecure about that is mind-boggling to me. And as for you being smart enough to do different things, there are plenty of smart people out there but not a lot of people with your kind of voice. Do what makes you happy.

Speaking of smarts, or lack there of, I learned a new term from my students the other day. Tit-wanking. It means boob fucking ( ijust typed that and I can'y see where it came up so I had to type it again so if it means boob fucking shows up anywhere else, my apologies) I really do love my kids. The only part I hate about my job is the whole educating part. Getting them to any kind of work is by far the most tedious ridiculous thing I have ever hadto do. Its the comments like "you mothers nipples" and "i'll put syphillis in your face" that get me through that part. I would much rather I were involved in the whole social work aspect then the education aspect. I'm quite good at talking kids through their problems. Thats all i can think of to write at the moment. it wa snice hearing form you arielle! I miss all of you. Oh! I have been pretty sick lately the doctor told me it is a cold but i wanted to inform her that in fact it is the plague. I'm feeling betterish now. About 80% which is good because I have been feeling liek 30% but I really hope I am at least 90% tomorrow if not I am going to be in a real foul mood becaus eI have left the house 3 times this week and its getting old. But anyways I have been having crazy fever dreams where my roomates piss me off and i either bitch at them or cry alone. To reiterate this is in my fever dreams. I love them and they love me and would never actually piss me off that much. But anyways my dream last night was that we went to class and our teacher told us he was taking us to a pub but instead took us through backyards like over fences and whatnot to a house party. I was still pretty sick in my dream and I fr some reason was without a coat ad shoes. It is damn cold here btw. I wanted to just go back to the flat because I wasn't feeling well, but they convinced me to come coatless and shoeless. When we got there they all completely ignored me and isolated me. When I tried to walk up to them they would see me and run away Celia (in my dream) actually told me to leave her alone. SO i decided to go home and cry alone and rest so I tried to go to each of my roomates and was denied then I saw arielle in the black dress with them pink toule that she wore at her sweet sixteen and I went to her and told her that I was going home and she kissed me on th eforehead asked me if I were ok, offered to walk me back and said she hopes I feel better. True friend. My roomates would never never do that an I'm pretty sure they enjoy my company. But still I had to share that with you guys. Thats it for real this time! Catch you later!