almost back in nj...

hello all! im glad people finally have some time to post! ive missed you all but i will finally be coming home this friday. so lets do some hanging out next week. hope things are going well for everyone. i just had an amazing weekend- my school won the national championship. i know that doesnt sound so exciting to you guys since you dont watch basketball but trust me...its a big deal. so i was out celebrating on franklin street last night and even jumped over a few (small) bonfires. definitely a great way to wrap up my senior year of college. im still trying to accept the fact that im almost done. forever. i still have no idea what i will be doing next year. ive applied to schools in nj and nc since the job market is so rough (even for teachers). so maybe i will be in nj next year, but perhaps not. i would miss you all terribly if i was down here. but at the same time there is a lot of things i love about nc. so maybe it would be a win win no matter where i end up. there really isnt much point to this post- im just sharing my rambling thoughts with you all.

lydia- your dream cracked me up. leah- im jealous- i want to go to the anne frank museum! stay safe over there in europe...and bring me back a postcard please. jessie- yay 5th place! cant wait to see the video. did you run into ginny in ohio? arie- hope youre still alive =) chelsea- cool video. it was lovely to see your beautiful face. i wanted to make one of my own but my camera died =(

ok- love you all! see you next week!!

Oi!

hello everyone.

Lydia I am happy you are having sex dreams about your bf in jps body. I didn't realise that it was you posting at first and I thought somebody else was having a dream about making out with billy. I wonder if I wold tell you if i had a dream about making out with Baby gap. Probably. Speaking of dreams. I had the a really random dream last night. I was hanging out/ flirting/ snogging with Anuj sathe. (he was in my grade and played trumpet in marching band and also went to elementary school with me. last i heard he was going to NYU film school) anyways, I woke up and was like "Anuj Sathe wtf?" so i went to go stalk him on facebook but I am not friends with him. Oh well. Are any of you friends with him or still in the SBHS network? Then I could stalk by proxy. I have been havin really weird dreams all weekend mostly because I was in Amsterdam ad I was high for about 90% of the trip. It was absolutely ridiculous there. I have to go back for longer than a weekend. We went to a sex show  ( to clarify a show where people have sex in front of you) and my roommate jordan and our friend bryan ate a banana out of a cooter. crazy. During one act this harlot was giving head to some guy and there was this kid about our age wearing a trinity college sweatshirt and he was way up in the action, like two feet away from the wiggle. Bran was sitting next to me and said to me "look at this kid he's way up in the action" and I looked over at him ad he looked at me at the same time and I experienced te most awkward eye contact of my life. We locked eyes for a good 5 seconds and I am pretty sure we were both sweating at the end of it.I know I was. I then told bryan what he had just made me do and he spit his beer on me in a fit of laughter. I didn't care I was high.

I also did some educational things in Amsterdam like the Anne frank house. It is so eerie in there but worth the 8 euro. I got a little teary eyed. I also did the Van gogh museum which was AMAZING! buuuut it probably would have been only pretty cool it I had bot smoked beforehand. It is so nice to smoke without the worry of getting caught.

Lydia, I am so sad that I had to miss your recital. I actually have been looking forward to it since you started going to westminster. You bet your ass I will be there next year though.

I will be hooting and hollering in the front row. I know you did really well and I hope I get to see a video of it when I get home? please? I also hope I get to see a video of Jessies guard show.   I really really miss all of you and I want to spend the summer in NJ again. Buuut I don't know if I can. I don't want to mooch on anyone this summer So I was wondering if Lydia or Johann will have an apartment that I could pay a bit of rent for? It would be from like earlyish may to mid august.  I would have to figure out a job first though. OOOH I don't knwo what I want to do I have to talk to my mom. She would be pretty pissed if I spent anymor etime away from her. I hate decisions like this. well i have to g it is like 75 dgrees here ad I am going to go frlic around singing gunther. I am looking forward to some tuttu fruiti summer love with you guys. Love you!

don't judge

so, last night I had a dream that I was making out with billy.. and it WAS billy, except he looked like... jp. you know, that one. my fifth grade dream come true! haha. i woke up and was realllly grossed out!! we have all been failing on upgrading lately, probably because we're all way too busy! i know i have been. my recital is on saturday and im really excited.. but also kind of sick. but im probably just freaking myself out. i really hope that i will be well enough to have it because i want to get it over with and start learning new music.
i guess i will tell you about spring break. i went to florida! with my sister to visit my grandparents.. it was really fun! all i really did was swim and eat. also we played progressive rummy for money and my grandpa won 4 out of 4 times. haha. i decided that my grandma must love to feed people so much because she was talking about the great depression when they would make one rack of lamb on sunday and that was food for the whole week.. and maybe a potato here or there. yikes! but yeah, it was fun. and really nice to just get away from new jersey for a while. i cant wait until we're old and have real jobs and have enough money to take cool vacations together!
johann, i miss you very much ;( i cant wait until april 10!! or april 11? whenever.. i cant wait. leah, i also miss you :( and i hope youre having more fun/laughter in london. jess, good luck this weekend!! you guys will kick ass!!!! arie, i havent seen you in 9804845 years. this must be fixed. chelsea, great video. your eyes do look weird.
ok love you all!! :)

My eyes look funny.

snow day in NC

hello! sorry its been so long since i wrote anything. last week i was sick and did not have the energy for things like typing or thinking. it made going to school and teaching all day not so fun. but i am all better now =) and i have a snow day. which is nc means there is an inch of snow on the ground and everyone is too scared to drive. so my life has been going pretty well. student teaching has its ups and downs. i didnt realize how hard getting the children all to behave would be. but (except for one day last week) i still want to be a teacher so i guess thats a good sign. ok i dont have anything particularly exciting to relate. besides teaching i dont have much of a life. but i wanted to say hi to everyone. has everyone turned to march on their fla calendars? the picture makes me smile.
leah- you should show your london friends this picture of a black person with a butter knife and a packet of jelly stuck in her sleeve pocket. if they dont laugh at that- well then you can just give them up as lost causes. i hope you are having many lovely experiences and dont miss us too much! i miss you coming to spend the weekend with me. if you were here now we could play in the snow...
arielle- i think we all have days when our heads go a little crazy. im sorry =( they are no fun. neither are relationships when you cant see the person whenever you want and have to rely on the phone. but im sure everything will work out fine for you. i love you!
jessie- because i am such a colorguard dork i saw that sac won the power regional. yay! congrats. i wish i could see you guys in person this year. but i will definitely watch the dvd when you get one.
lydia- im actually sticking to my goal is eating fairly healthy. some days are better than others tho.
chelsea- no special message but hi! and no more videos of kittens or i will come back to nj just to punch you in the face =)
ok- i still have to go in to school for a teacher workday so i should go get ready. bye all

Hello, it's me.

Hello friends!

I just got back from Washington D.C. where I was visiting Jordan for the weekend. I really love that city. It is my favorite city in the world. And, just think..when I'm president I'm going to get to live there. How awesome is that? SUPER AWESOME. It was a good weekend. We went to a bar on friday night and I had to use an extra fake ID that once belonged to Betsy's sister. (Betsy is Jordan's friend.) The guy took one look at the ID and said "You guys have to get better fake IDs." So I was like OH SHIT! I'm in trouble! But then he said he'll let me go this one night and never again. So, I got in as 21 anyway. I thanked him profusely. Then a frat boy was talking to me and Jordan and bought us our drinks. Once he started to walk away we left as quick as possile because all we wanted was the drinks. not him. And there was a creepy 40 year old guy who was like getting girls drunk and buying them shots and having them dance on the bar. We steered clear of him, no worries.

Saturday, we were going to go to the American History Museum (WHOO!) but we got there at five and most of the museums closed at 5:30. So, that was a bust. We took quick pictures of the capital and the washington monument and then got out of there because it was cold. In all, it was a super awesome weekend.

Arie, buck up camper! you have plenty of friends and your head is being crazy. DONT LISTEN TO IT! There is nothing wrong with you/your life.

Leah, maybe your room mates have british humor and just dont get your american ways. (yes, i know they are not from england but maybe its rubbing off on them.)

Lyd, good story.

saggy boobs.

so i keep trying to leave comments and it wont let me!!

arie, i was going to comment on yours and say that im sorry youve been feeling down :( i get home a lot earlier than everyone in my apartment and it gets to me, too. we should hang out sometimes while everyone else is still at school! maybe you feel weird about dave because you really dont see him that often.. and when youre feeling down its easy to think of things to make yourself feel worse. all i can really tell you is that i know youre strong enough to not let this get to you completely. maybe you just need some more distractions :)

leah, im sorry you feel like life is being a bitch to you. :( i agree that you are a good person and these bad things should definitely not happen to you!! but as silly as it is, everything happens for a reason. it also makes me sad that you arent laughing a lot :( i hope when jordy arrives she will make you feel better. it takes a lot to adjust to a new place, you know? as you know better than any of us having moved to georgia and all. basically, i think youre amazing and you should keep your head up and do whatever you want to in order to have some fun!!!!

back to the title of this post... i have saggy boobs. yup, at age 20. how did this happen?! its just all going to go downhill from here. anyone else having this problem?
also, johann, hows your diet going? mine is failing miserably. i havent gained any weight but i havent lost any either! i cant wait till summer when we can be eating buddies :(