don't judge

so, last night I had a dream that I was making out with billy.. and it WAS billy, except he looked like... jp. you know, that one. my fifth grade dream come true! haha. i woke up and was realllly grossed out!! we have all been failing on upgrading lately, probably because we're all way too busy! i know i have been. my recital is on saturday and im really excited.. but also kind of sick. but im probably just freaking myself out. i really hope that i will be well enough to have it because i want to get it over with and start learning new music.
i guess i will tell you about spring break. i went to florida! with my sister to visit my grandparents.. it was really fun! all i really did was swim and eat. also we played progressive rummy for money and my grandpa won 4 out of 4 times. haha. i decided that my grandma must love to feed people so much because she was talking about the great depression when they would make one rack of lamb on sunday and that was food for the whole week.. and maybe a potato here or there. yikes! but yeah, it was fun. and really nice to just get away from new jersey for a while. i cant wait until we're old and have real jobs and have enough money to take cool vacations together!
johann, i miss you very much ;( i cant wait until april 10!! or april 11? whenever.. i cant wait. leah, i also miss you :( and i hope youre having more fun/laughter in london. jess, good luck this weekend!! you guys will kick ass!!!! arie, i havent seen you in 9804845 years. this must be fixed. chelsea, great video. your eyes do look weird.
ok love you all!! :)

My eyes look funny.

snow day in NC

hello! sorry its been so long since i wrote anything. last week i was sick and did not have the energy for things like typing or thinking. it made going to school and teaching all day not so fun. but i am all better now =) and i have a snow day. which is nc means there is an inch of snow on the ground and everyone is too scared to drive. so my life has been going pretty well. student teaching has its ups and downs. i didnt realize how hard getting the children all to behave would be. but (except for one day last week) i still want to be a teacher so i guess thats a good sign. ok i dont have anything particularly exciting to relate. besides teaching i dont have much of a life. but i wanted to say hi to everyone. has everyone turned to march on their fla calendars? the picture makes me smile.
leah- you should show your london friends this picture of a black person with a butter knife and a packet of jelly stuck in her sleeve pocket. if they dont laugh at that- well then you can just give them up as lost causes. i hope you are having many lovely experiences and dont miss us too much! i miss you coming to spend the weekend with me. if you were here now we could play in the snow...
arielle- i think we all have days when our heads go a little crazy. im sorry =( they are no fun. neither are relationships when you cant see the person whenever you want and have to rely on the phone. but im sure everything will work out fine for you. i love you!
jessie- because i am such a colorguard dork i saw that sac won the power regional. yay! congrats. i wish i could see you guys in person this year. but i will definitely watch the dvd when you get one.
lydia- im actually sticking to my goal is eating fairly healthy. some days are better than others tho.
chelsea- no special message but hi! and no more videos of kittens or i will come back to nj just to punch you in the face =)
ok- i still have to go in to school for a teacher workday so i should go get ready. bye all

Hello, it's me.

Hello friends!

I just got back from Washington D.C. where I was visiting Jordan for the weekend. I really love that city. It is my favorite city in the world. And, just think..when I'm president I'm going to get to live there. How awesome is that? SUPER AWESOME. It was a good weekend. We went to a bar on friday night and I had to use an extra fake ID that once belonged to Betsy's sister. (Betsy is Jordan's friend.) The guy took one look at the ID and said "You guys have to get better fake IDs." So I was like OH SHIT! I'm in trouble! But then he said he'll let me go this one night and never again. So, I got in as 21 anyway. I thanked him profusely. Then a frat boy was talking to me and Jordan and bought us our drinks. Once he started to walk away we left as quick as possile because all we wanted was the drinks. not him. And there was a creepy 40 year old guy who was like getting girls drunk and buying them shots and having them dance on the bar. We steered clear of him, no worries.

Saturday, we were going to go to the American History Museum (WHOO!) but we got there at five and most of the museums closed at 5:30. So, that was a bust. We took quick pictures of the capital and the washington monument and then got out of there because it was cold. In all, it was a super awesome weekend.

Arie, buck up camper! you have plenty of friends and your head is being crazy. DONT LISTEN TO IT! There is nothing wrong with you/your life.

Leah, maybe your room mates have british humor and just dont get your american ways. (yes, i know they are not from england but maybe its rubbing off on them.)

Lyd, good story.

saggy boobs.

so i keep trying to leave comments and it wont let me!!

arie, i was going to comment on yours and say that im sorry youve been feeling down :( i get home a lot earlier than everyone in my apartment and it gets to me, too. we should hang out sometimes while everyone else is still at school! maybe you feel weird about dave because you really dont see him that often.. and when youre feeling down its easy to think of things to make yourself feel worse. all i can really tell you is that i know youre strong enough to not let this get to you completely. maybe you just need some more distractions :)

leah, im sorry you feel like life is being a bitch to you. :( i agree that you are a good person and these bad things should definitely not happen to you!! but as silly as it is, everything happens for a reason. it also makes me sad that you arent laughing a lot :( i hope when jordy arrives she will make you feel better. it takes a lot to adjust to a new place, you know? as you know better than any of us having moved to georgia and all. basically, i think youre amazing and you should keep your head up and do whatever you want to in order to have some fun!!!!

back to the title of this post... i have saggy boobs. yup, at age 20. how did this happen?! its just all going to go downhill from here. anyone else having this problem?
also, johann, hows your diet going? mine is failing miserably. i havent gained any weight but i havent lost any either! i cant wait till summer when we can be eating buddies :(

hmm.

So last night I was trying to get to sleep and I think my wisdom teeth do have to be taken out because I had a crazy toothache. I thought I would just listen to my ipod until I fell asleep. I tried to turn on my ipod then remembered that my roomate spilled water/beer on it so it would not turn on. ( I now have it plugged in to my computer and it is on i hope it holds battery) so I called my mom all pissy and just bitched about how tired I am of all these shitty things happening to me. i was bitching about KArma and how I think that I am a good person and I try really hard to be nice but OBviously there is a higher being who thinks that I suck and I must have been a Nazi in a past life. Because since I got here I have had my wallet with 150 pounds, my debit card, my student Id and my passport in it stolen, I have been sick twice (one of those times I am pretty sure I had the plague) My wisdom teeth are hurting me like whoa and my ipod might be broken. The punches just keep coming. And I have not met any of those charming british boys because we always have the boys from downstairs hanging around us and we might as well have leprosy with them hanging around. But anyways after bitching at my mom I fell asleep and I feel better now. I'm not cursing any higher beings today. Though if more shitty things happen you guys can count on me getting struck by lightning.

Next weekend Jordan gets here. I talked to my friend Samantha from GA last night and I realised that my roomates don't get my sense of humor. I was laughing with her about her professor defending someone who was obviously a baby shaker (long story) and my roomate cvame out to see if I was ok because she thought Iwas crying. I told Sam tha I don't laugh here. which prompted her to laugh at me. it was a good talk. I really do miss everyone dearly. But I have friends coming to visit soon so maybe that will help. Maybe if I can joke in front of my roomates they will catch on and then I can joke with them more when my home friends leave. I'm not sure he point of this post but oh well. catch you later.

proof that girls are crazy

so, i don't know whats wrong with me, but when i spend too much time by myself i can convince myself of anything. the past 2 days i've been done with class and everything by about 2:30, and from that point on have had nothing to do. so both days i came back to my room, played wii for a little bit, then took extremely long naps, which is weird, cause i don't nap. but yesterday i took a 4 hour nap! which for me is HUGE! and then, idk, just so much time by myself my thoughts have been going haywire. i can easily convince myself of things like somethings wrong with my relationship, or i have no friends and no social life, or that people are mad at me when they're really not. and from a rational point of view, none of any of these things are true, but for some reason lately i've been left feeling really alone and depressed. like, i got in a fight with dave on sunday night, and we went to bed angry which really bothered me, but by early monday we had everything completely resolved, and things have been fine after that. but for some reason i can easily tell myself something's wrong and we're gonna break up and all of these things, when the truth is nothing's wrong and everything's perfectly fine. but why do i do this to myself?? sometimes i really feel like i'm going crazy :(